Heartfelt. </3.
a white lie just to make him happy. i’m afraid if we start having a convo, we will fight. why do i feel jealous when he’s having fun with his friends? because i’m not there. and i pray that he will smile and laugh before 2011 ends. i wondered who will be he’s companion on new year countdown? i’m vulnerable here. when will i get to skype with him again? i don’t think he wants. its obvious. making time for friends over me. i will have to stop contacting him, i don’t know where i stand in his heart. should i give up and start afresh for the year 2012? i couldn’t even wink a sleep. it seemed he barely know me.
Heartfelt. </3.
I know I’ve not done my part as a good person in your life. I’m sorry to ever disappoint you again. Flings come and go. I may have feelings for others but it’s never easy for me to spit out “I Love You” to someone easily. I do hope you understand my situation. Now, it feels like I’m a burden to you coz I’m sharing my problems. I’m afraid of losing you if you might get bored learning it. I just hope and pray that 2012 will be better. Amin. It made me think that should I give up everything? My life now is a total chaos. Why add? There’s a whole lot of story, I mean my experience here to share. And, there’s a whole new chapter awaits us. I wish you are able to pull through until the day I stand before you.
